Okay so this is my third post today! I'm sorry. Okay no i'm not. I mean what else am i expected to do. But this is going to be a belated birthday present to myself. I'm going to look on the bright side-all the good things that have happened since my LAST birthday.
1. I got over my fear of rollercoaster: Three-Nitro, El Toro and Batman...I'm not going to stoop low enough to count the Runaway Mine Train.
2. I'm sort of more comfortable with myself. I don't think i'm pretty or anything like that. But it does't really matter to me as much. I feel much less of a need to live up to other peoples standards. Who am i? Me: Childish, Stubborn, Annoying, Talkative, Loud, Naive, Impulsive, Passionate....so so many more. I don't think of it as a bad thing. Or a good thing. Just...me?
3. I wrote a hell of a lot. And every word that leaves my pen eases the tension...
4. I got a birthday card from dad. And i didn't reply. I don't need to. That part of my life-the insecure little girl that wants to go running back to daddy-is gone. I have the willpower to be independent if not for anyone else then for my own good.
5. I learned that when all else fails, all you need is some Aerosmith.
6. I learned that I pity the girls who feel the need to be human clones. To be unique is a distinctly good quality.
7. I cried a little here and there. But i'm strong enough to take whatevers waiting around the next corner.
8. I have a job application. I'm a working girl. I have my own income.
9. I know that when there's no one else to depend on, you have yourself to lean on. Only depend on others so much because if they let you down, it'll take a lot of energy to get back up again. I need to be strong for myself.
10. When i love someone, i can give myself to them, totally. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing but i think it's important either way.
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