Innocence Is Gone

Alright well something's really been bugging me lately and it's that kids today are growing up too quickly. I feel like we don't have time to enjoy our childhood. We're maturing too fast. Only we're not really maturing, it's a mangled teenage version of maturity; having sex and getting pregnant when you're 14 isn't mature or responsible. It's just a sign that you're trying to grow up before you're ready to. But i don't want to grow up. I like my age and i like knowing that i'm irresponsible and inmature and...i'm not old enough to lose that yet. None of us ever really lose that inmaturity but as we age, that childishness and carelessness gets buried under the weight of all those years. And we're so young! Why lose what we have now when we can't have it later? But it's not all our faults. Perhaps it's just the way it is today. It's hard to be innocent when words like "fuck" and the subject of "boffing" is thrown around in everyday conversation so lightly. It's not that i don't say them myself or that i disapprove, it's just the truth. I mean, for example, in the 60's, if a boy touched a girl in the "upper" or "lower" or "back" sections she would probably slap him, not that a boy would even do that. But today the girl would say absolutely nothing because it would be nothing out of the ordinary to her. But we're so young. We're not ready for that yet and we'd be stupid to fool ourselves into thinking we are. Dating, commitment , kissing, "hooking up". Fine. But not anything more. And i hate that so many people think it's "cool" to have sex and do drugs and everything because it's not cool. It's retarded and i'm sorry to say so, but if you're one of those people, YOU'RE retarded. Not to be rude. Even though, oh shucks, that was pretty rude. Our innocence is gone. And you know what, it shouldn't be. And i dont know about you, but i'm planning on doing everything i can to stay that way for as long as possible. Because i'm a kid. And that doesn't bother me. And i don't want to rush it. I also think that it's time i took control of my life and stop letting my heart lead me. My heart led me once and where did i end up? Nowhere good. It's time i ignored my heart. Instead of following my heart, it's time i learn to lead it.