Empty...?

Ok wow...i keep on neglecting my blog. It's not that i forget it's just that every time i think of it lately, the thought that comes up is...yea so what'r you going to write? And it's so true. Nothing has happened. Nothing. It's practically embarassing but it's true. Yeah we had a snow day. Yeah i had a fun weekend. But nothing really important or, rather, heart warming has happened and i haven't felt anything deep (happy or sad) in so long im beginning to wonder if it's possible to go numb (in the emotional way that is) because if it is, i think that clears everything up just fine. I looked it up online and it's not a condition; it's a state of mind. According to wikipedia and several other reliable sources, i'm trying to save me from myself which is basically my translation of all the scientific crap. Another words, i'm trying to hide everything i'm feeling to save myself from any future pain that could be anything like what it was. But then why do i want the feeling back if i'm keeping it from myself? And how am i doing this to myself without even knowing. I feel so lost. Like i'm empty and im falling through a hole like alice in wonderland and i dont remember where it started but i wish i knew where or if it was going to end.