It's been a few days since i last posted but, hey, i'm lucky to be alive after my mom saw my math average. It was low, just a tad. Ok, admittedly, i was really upset but i made it into the honors society so it won't seem half as bad. Not that i deserve it. I mean who gets awards for practically failing? I guess I'm just lucky. But i feel stupid. That award could have been given to someone who
a) cared more and
b) had a justifiable reason to be getting it in the first place
But there's nothing i can do about it. I hate that feeling of watching something horrible happening and you just have to sit back and eat your popcorn and let it all happen because there's honestly nothing you can do. That doesn't happen to me very often. I have a thing for taking action, even when it's obvious i should just give it a rest. I have a habit of dragging out the smallest things; little fights with my mom become full out screaming fits because i can't help saying whatever pops up into my head (which is usually "bitter, sarcastic and disrespectful) as she likes to put it. But i can't help that i want to stand up for myself...maybe a bit too much but, it can't be helped. I don't like listening: period. I'm not rebellious, i just have a mind of my own and i don't care if you're my mom or my teacher or what, i have the right to my own opinion and i also have the right to apply that to whatever you told me to do and decide to do it my own way. And, actually, it's not one of the (many) things i want to change about myself. I like knowing that i'm stubborn because i know i don't ever really have to give up or cave in. If the cost of that is being overly passionate about everything, then so be it. Weird, i forgot how i even got on this subject. Well anyway, all i really planned on saying when i started to blog was that it's amazing the week is finally close to finished.
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