Ok so i haven't really posted in a while. I'm upset because tomorrow marks the start of school again. Soon it'll be March and we won't be off for a whole month which is....very troubling to say the least. Ok so i never took Fazp ice skating but i can assure you, we are definitely going. Soon. Maybe this week on Sunday? And i had a nice vacation, it's not that i didn't appreciate it. It's just that i wish there had been more time to...well it wasn't really very exciting. I didn't get much done. I'm not halfway done with my math homework and i have a science essay to finish and i didn't even start on my CA project. And now highschool is looming nearer and nearer and it's just...everything is happening too fast. I don't really want to leave intermediate. In fact, i still miss elementary. Everyone says high school is great. You have more freedom, you're treated more like an adult. Well, the point is i'm not an adult. I'm barely a teenager! And maybe i miss being a kid and all the simpler things. High school is not something i'm looking forward to. And it took me so long to make friends where i am now...Well to form CLOSE friendships. And now everyones leaving. And all we had was three years? It seems like such a waste of time that when you're finally learning to accept who you are and the way your life is, it changes again. It's so frustrating. But maybe that's what it means to live. Don't get me wrong, i'm good at adapting to change. I'm used to it. But it doesn't mean i dont suffer internally because of it. I feel like i wasted my childhood. Like i have no decent memories and it sucks that i can't go back and change that. And now they say this is the worst age? The drug accepting, peer pressured, concert going, underage drinking, harley riding age that, unfortunately, can make or break you? It's so confusing. I just want to go to bed but i hate that lingering feeling you get before you drift off that, yeah, you're safe for now but your problems will come right back when you wakeup. But you know what? I'll worry about it when i wake up.