I'm feeling so impatient lately, like I'm always waiting for something to happen. But I don't in any way trigger anything happening, or even entertain the idea for that matter. So I sort of know something won't. So why am I constantly waiting?---Today is Friday so I'm not going to think about that. I had another one of those 'nightmares' last night. I don't know what they mean, or if they mean anything at all honestly, but they need to stop. I think I'd be a little upset if they did but for my own personal sanity's sake, I'd get over it. Then again, I don't ever seem to do much on behalf of my sanity. It must be an entity which marries very little to me unconsciously. Or maybe I might stil have one. Good nightmares only seem good when you're asleep.