Am i just a nerd or can someone relate to book obsession? To me, there's no better place in the world then behind printed pages. Anywhere else, you're still you but when you read... you're not you anymore. And that might as well be my dream. To not be me, that is. No one can blame me. No one would ever want to be me. But that's not really the point. I've got plenty of time to insult myself and it doesn't have to be in public. I have low enough self esteem without showing it to the whole world. Point is, am i cowardice to  hide away in my books? Because more and more recently it seems like that's what I'm doing. Mom thinks you're a failure? Read a book. Dad texts you saying he misses you when he probably wants his old punching bag back? Read. Love sucks? Read. Does that make me a coward? I hope it doesn't because even though i have such low self esteem, i've always prided myself in that i don't hide from things and I'm strong that way. If anything at all is good about me, i would think that would be it. But i just hope that I'm not running away from things. Not only reading but writing... songs, poetry, stories.... music and all that. It's all kind of an escape from reality. It bothers me to think that i need to escape from reality but... i do.