Here I Go Again

Is it crazy to miss someone that hates you? When you havent talked to someone in a really long time and you just KNOW that they, far from loving you, hate you but you still really miss them. Instead of thinking of all the horrible things he did to me and how much he hurt me and screwed me up and contributed to the demented weirdo i am today, i miss him alot. I know i probably shouldn't. I hate that i could miss someone that hurt me so badly but i think thats actually part of the reason i miss him. Because i want to prove to myself that when i call him up and he comes and sees me he'll say that i'm smart or pretty or all the things i wish i am but know i'm not. I get it a lot but it would be so nice coming from him. I hate that i want to impress someone but truthfully and i always say it myself, theres a fine line between love and hate.